SupaChan's Words

I had the pleasure of finding a radio station recently which plays nothing but New Wave music! OMG, right? Today I chose to listen to said station on my way to work.. it was fantastic!! Can you even imagine the amount flashbacks to good times I had??! Message in a Bottle - YES! Alphaville - Forever Young - MORE YES!! I'm so excited to have finally found a way to improve my commute. It's not that I don't love driving - I do. I don't like other people's driving!

Have you ever just been getting along with someone famously and as far as you know things will continue to be great? And all of a sudden, just like that, BAM! The other person says they can't do it, or they don't want to be friends anymore, or for whatever fucked up reason they're done. And just like that, poof - they're gone from your life. That's when the internal dialogue begins - what did I do wrong? Was it something I said? Something I didn't say? Something I didn't do? Something I could've or should've done? And the questions go on and on and on! And you don't get any closure. And it hurts!! Fuck it hurts!! At least with closure, it's easier to just let it go and be done with it. Without closure you're left wondering, analyzing, questioning every single detail of every conversation you EVER had with that person. It is my opinion that this is where/when I build a wall - or at least put a brick in my ever increasing wall. I leave a me

8/31/16 was the date I saw him! I wrote this a couple days after a true experience, after seeing someone that I used to love (I'll call him A). Dear A, I hadn’t/haven’t thought about you in months, and then all of sudden, BAM there you were. In the flesh, I saw you for real today. You walked right past me, twice! Your name suspended on the tip of my tongue, I wanted to call out to you, I wanted to, more than anything. It took every ounce of my willpower to remain quiet and not say your name. You would've  heard me even if I didn’t yell. You were that close to me. I thought for sure the pounding of my heart would give me away.  I wanted to lean forward and whisper your name. Perhaps I should have. I wanted you to turn towards the sound and smile when you saw it was me, for real. To see me in the flesh, within an arm’s reach of you. To watch your eyes light up as you recognized me. I wanted to go to you, to hug you, and to kiss you. I wanted to show you how sorry I was. For

Today I've been having very contemplative and nostalgic thoughts. I can't help but wonder why I made some of the choices I did, or if given the opportunity again, would I make the same choice.? Have you ever thought about the choices we've made and why? How much different would my life be if I had done XXX instead XXX? I feel like I have made the best choices for me over the course of my life for the most part but I also know there are some things that if I could go back, I would choose differently. Because I'm a dreamer, I end thinking of the could have beens a lot more than I should be.

Appearances are not held to be a clue to the truth. But we seem to have no other. ~Ivy Compton-Burnett

Both optimists and pessimists contribute to our society. The optimist invents the airplane and the pessimist the parachute. ~Gil Stern.

Wherever you go, no matter what the weather, always bring your own sunshine. ~Anthony J. D'Angelo

http://www.healing-crystals-for-you.com/good-vibrations.html

Life is a great big canvas, and you should throw all the paint at it that you can. ~Danny Kaye

My sister recently got married. Not only was she the most beautiful bride I've ever seen, but the most amazing sister. There are not enough words in this world to describe how much I love her! I'll leave these 2 quotes because I really loved them. ~ The loveliest thing I know is.... My sister. ~Lord Byron ~Having a sister is like having a best friend you can’t get rid of. You know whatever you do, they’ll still be there. ~Amy Li

It's my experience that when I am NOT being true to myself, or when I am trying to be/act like someone else for any reason, I feel different. I mean I experience a physical change. On the other side of that coin, when I am being myself, embracing all that is me, I feel incredible! Unstoppable! It is truly the greatest feeling. Makes me wonder, why then do I sometimes choose to not act like or be myself? I'm sure everyone experiences this or something similar. The hard part is recognizing it.... I leave you with this quote I really enjoyed. ~Every time you don't follow your inner guidance, you feel a loss of energy, loss of power, a sense of spiritual deadness. ~Shakti Gawain

A daydream is a meal at which images are eaten. Some of us are gourmets, some gourmands, and a good many take their images precooked out of a can and swallow them down whole, absent-mindedly and with little relish. ~W.H. Auden

If someone were to pay you ten cents for every kind word you said about people and collect five cents for every unkind word, would you be rich or poor? ~Author unknown

In a rapidly ascending balloon were two men. One watched the earth getting farther and farther away. One watched the stars getting nearer and nearer. ~George Jean Nathan ~What do you think about when you read this quote? I think about how there are so many people in this world who fight and fight to be right, not realizing that it's all about perspective. Just because you think it's right doesn't mean that I do, or vice versa. A great example of perspective is the 'Bread and Butter Battle' book by Dr. Seuss. I strongly encourage you to read it. Then pass it on to someone else to read it. And remember, just because YOU think it's right, doesn't mean that it is. It's simply your opinion/perception.

When I was young, I admired clever people. Now that I am old, I admire kind people. ~Abraham Joshua Heschel

After talking to one of my friends yesterday it sparked some thoughts in my brain that I couldn't just let go... I had to think them through. Do you ever wonder why some people seem to never embrace their true self? Or is it that their true self really is that person? That selfish self-serving, mean or cruel, think they're better than you attitude, and with no warning they push their 'so called' friend under the bus mentality person, is who they really are? As a human of this world, I truly have a hard time believing that their human nature is to be anything other than love? I'm not saying I'm all loving all the time or that I don't demonstrate rude, mean, or selfish behaviors or that I don't say unkind things - because I do, I AM saying I don't believe that any persons CORE beliefs, or souls are so tainted and wicked that they act this way the majority of their adult life, if not their whole life. And it truly saddens me when I explain to them why I

Men in general judge more from appearances than from reality. All men have eyes, but few have the gift of penetration. ~Niccolo Machiavelli I think this is a great reminder to all of us. Do not judge. I know it's hard. Sometimes it seems to just happen like you didn't mean to, but you still did. Completely unconsciously, or sub-consciously. For some of us, this may even be a daily struggle, or many times a day struggle. I do my best to not judge, to accept people for WHO they are and not for what they do. Sometimes this is an easy goal I've set up on myself, other times it feels damn near impossible. The important thing is I don't give up. I continue to strive to BE the best version of myself. To me, this includes not judging others, and being kind - as often as possible, most of all to BE love.

Courage is a love affair with the unknown. ~Osho

To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting. ~e.e. cummings This is so true. I look at myself, my family, my friends, other people and wonder, are we being true to ourselves? Are we genuine? If we're not, why not? Why do we ever feel a need to be, act, or say something just because somebody else told us to be a certain way, or act on something against our true selves wishes and desires? Today and every day moving forward I am making a conscious effort to only be me! To listen to that inner knowing (because it's always right), to be, act, and say things that are true to myself. Because in the end, that's all there really is anyway.

I was just remembering that at one point in my life (back in my teenage years I'm sure) I had planned on writing a book. Not just any book either, it was going to be one of the NY Times bestsellers, of course. I remember getting a pretty good amount of pages written. Now I sit here contemplating whatever happened to those pages? The ones I worked so hard on.... but, more importantly, what happened to that dream? Why didn't I pursue it? Why haven't I even now? As I age, perhaps even approach that terrifying 'middle-aged generalization' I've decided there are some dreams that I WANT to pursue, even now. Because after all, and according to the X-Files, "Dreams are answers to questions we haven't yet figured out how to ask."

In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit. ~Albert Schweitzer

Friendship isn’t a big thing — it’s a million little things. ~Author Unknown

I absolutely LOVE coffee! Usually with just a little bit of cream, maybe some coconut oil and/or a bit of honey or sugar. I recently was given the opportunity to try a new coffee brand that a friend shared with me. This coffee is soooooooo gooooooddd, I can drink it black! Thank you Cafe' Ibis for creating this miraculous wonder drink that I am now totally head over heels in love with. Also a huge thanks to my friend for introducing us. My life will never be the same. :)

I came across this quote today and really felt like sharing. It reminded me to take/find as much joy in the small things as I do in the big ones. Overall, I'm generally pretty silly so I guess this is quote is giving me permission to continue being silly. :)' QOTD: Enjoy yourself. It's later than you think. ~Chinese Proverb

I took this pretty picture the other day, then  I did some minimal editing and voilà! So simple yet so beautiful.

So I recently had a somewhat intimate dream about a friend. Now it wasn't the hottest, steamiest dream ever, but it was pretty intense. Probably the hottest, sexiest, friendliest, and best hug I've ever experienced. Accompanied by the words, "It's you. It's always been you." That's it!!! Nothing before, nothing after... just the best-est hug ever and six words!! My question is, do I tell this friend about my dream? Or no? I really don't know.... this is definitely one of those things that makes me go hmmmmmm....

My very first blog!  EVER!!