SupaChan's Words

8/31/16 was the date I saw him! I wrote this a couple days after a true experience, after seeing someone that I used to love (I'll call him A). Dear A, I hadn’t/haven’t thought about you in months, and then all of sudden, BAM there you were. In the flesh, I saw you for real today. You walked right past me, twice! Your name suspended on the tip of my tongue, I wanted to call out to you, I wanted to, more than anything. It took every ounce of my willpower to remain quiet and not say your name. You would've  heard me even if I didn’t yell. You were that close to me. I thought for sure the pounding of my heart would give me away.  I wanted to lean forward and whisper your name. Perhaps I should have. I wanted you to turn towards the sound and smile when you saw it was me, for real. To see me in the flesh, within an arm’s reach of you. To watch your eyes light up as you recognized me. I wanted to go to you, to hug you, and to kiss you. I wanted to show you how sorry I was. For...

Today I've been having very contemplative and nostalgic thoughts. I can't help but wonder why I made some of the choices I did, or if given the opportunity again, would I make the same choice.? Have you ever thought about the choices we've made and why? How much different would my life be if I had done XXX instead XXX? I feel like I have made the best choices for me over the course of my life for the most part but I also know there are some things that if I could go back, I would choose differently. Because I'm a dreamer, I end thinking of the could have beens a lot more than I should be.

Appearances are not held to be a clue to the truth. But we seem to have no other. ~Ivy Compton-Burnett

Both optimists and pessimists contribute to our society. The optimist invents the airplane and the pessimist the parachute. ~Gil Stern.